That night my mind began thinking about other boards and pins I had created through the years So many hours of searching interesting crafts, recipes, books, fashion, makeup, decorating. As I felt the joy of the dream I was sitting on it made me wonder why I left so many fun things waiting to do one day.
I remember thinking how many times I have heard myself say lines such as, "I cant do that", "I wish I could do that", "I don't have time to do that" , "I never could do that!!!!" My life was sounding like a broken record. I realized that night I must begin re-writing the story. I am not the little girl who shook in front of the classroom afraid in speech class anymore.
I made a decision to stop pinning and doing and the following day I got started. I had my eye on a vision of painted wine bottles decorated in burlap that spelled out the word HOME. I hoped one day I could find them to put on a table in my entryway. A friend told me I could definitely make them. I am not crafty but I reluctantly tackled the project. It took me a week and a lot of hot glue burns but to my delight they came out really cute. It may seem like a small accomplishment but it raised my confidence. I realized I was tired of being the scared little girl who continued the safe granny stitch on her crochet hook when there are so many colorful patterns to learn. This project made me feel at home with ME!
Last week Kevin and I were having a nice dinner at Ruth Chris restaurant and it brought back another memory. For years I suffered anxiety which kept me from eating out and having fun. With tears in my eyes I said to Kevin, "do you remember all those years I wished I could do this! And here I am!!!! It took work but it proved dreams can come true.
I see many people saving pieces of string, unfinished thoughts and holding onto loose ends to turn into something beautiful one day. I believe now and then life creates tears and the holes that form keep our dreams pinned up inside. My mission as I journey on is to re-weave the strands.
I cannot believe in 11 short days I turn 60!!! Life is passing so fast but that is OK . I am starting to believe that this may be my best age yet. My work of art may not be perfect but every time I come through my front door and see my bottles I smile. I created a vision and I am blessed for I am home and I have incredible love in my life.
You never know what you will learn about yourself when you attempt something new.
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