I am beginning to find my inner peace has been increasing as each day passes since my Mothers death. I am understanding as I get older that I must accept the inevitable. There will always be joys and sorrow, success and failure, pleasure and pain, births and deaths. As I get older I am travelling on this journey with the knowledge we dont know what tomorrow will bring us.
I know my Mother felt it was time to leave so that i can now live my life for me. I sometimes hear her voice reminding me that for years I did what I felt in my heart I needed to do but now its time to embrace this my next chapter.
I am slowly beginning to think of different things to try and places i would like to go and see within the next year. I have already learned so much during the past few months about different foods and changing my diet and lifestyle. Small little changes are becoming long term habits and i see results within myself.
I see with each passing day that I am becoming more confident. Im learning you cant sail a boat tied to the dock. I am slowly learning to loosen the knot that I have allowed to hold me back during my first chapter.
Im learning we would never go on a trip without a destination or a map. Im keeping the vision of my dreams in front of me. Im not concerned with arriving at the destination because we all know that even with a map we can get lost now and then. During the curves and the forks in the road Im learning each day to try to keep my eye focused on the trip but to also enjoy the journey and always be aware of all the wonderful experiences from day to day.
In the past I sometimes felt that my days were so long but I now see that the years are going by very fast. It no longer matters to me exactly how I am filling each day as much as finding the passion in the things Im choosing to do. I am blessed to have many people in my life who make me enourmously happy.
I soon will be saying goodbye to the age 52. I am excited to soon be 53 and I cannot wait to begin my 54th year. I hope my blog will be my travel postcards to encourage all of us 50 somethings not to be stuck on a number. Of course everything I attempt i will not do well. There are some things i will learn to be good at and other things I may have to leave to the hands of the experts.
For me it is not about acquiring bigger and better and recapturing youth as the commercials want us to feel is important. Im quite happy with the little lines and creaky joints. It is all part of my story. Im quite blessed and content with the life i have. We all have a story, and opinions and feelings. We all have something to share and i hope as I write my postcards during this my 54th year I will also receive some from you.
Goodbye 52, hello 53. I am ready to leap into 54 and Im prepared to say YES to everything it has to offer me. I know even on the days my fears do peak their heads I have my beautiful guardian angels watching over me and with that knowledge I can do anything I set my mind to and so can you.
We are 50 something. These truly are the best days of our lives. Keep your eye out for my postcards because I will soon be singing happy birthday to me and I look forward to sharing the story with all of you. Im ready to Begin!! Join me on my journey!!