The weeks following the funeral were busy for me. I had many thank you notecards to send which gave me comfort. My husband and I with heavy hearts took apart the room we created for her four years ago in our home and replaced it with my desk. Each day I made small attempts to remove her clothes, shoes, and personal items from the drawers and closets.
I found once all these tasks were completed I could not find the ambition to think of what to do next. I decided to just give myself time to deal and be a little sad because I knew that if I did I would be able to train my brain to think more positively. We all have moments where we just have to ride the wave and not fight it.
I was reading an article one day about how so many people visit food pantries once a week to get nourishing items for their families. There are so many people out of work or in low income situations. I remembered as I was reading that the senior center my Mother attended has one of those food pantries at their location. I immediately sent an email to the director asking if I could donate some food and she excitedly responded with yes, we would appreciate it.
I immediately began to take action on this very special project. I am currently busy shopping for food and the week before Mothers Day I plan on dropping it over to the center in the hopes to provide a little brightness for other Mothers in memory of my own Mother. I put my idea on facebook and I have some friends and family helping me. The cases are piling up and I am so excited to be doing something helpful. One message created the action to start the momentum of this ball rolling and it led me to one friend offering help and then another and the momentum is going strong.
I am so grateful I read that article that unambitious morning as it truly helped me. Messages are all around us, we just have to be open to hear them. We sometimes hear the messages but dont listen as it is easier to ignore but sometimes if you ponder the thought there may just be a grain of truth that you can apply to helping yourself.
I believe God brings the right people into our lives but sometimes we sadly must let some leave us. If we remain in sadness we are not opening our eyes to see the new. Signs of my Mother pop up every now and then during the course of my day and sometimes I still cry when I see something she folded or put away and sometimes I laugh and smile. I know she is proud of my collection of Mothers Day groceries for the center she loved.
Everything in life is on loan. We take absolutely nothing with us but hopefully we learn lessions while here. Im trying to be the best person I can be on this my second chapter and Im listening to the message. It isnt the end result that brings success but the journey to get there. Im not sure what my next ambitious attempt will be once Mothers Day is over but I joyfully anticipate listening as I know there will be many more ideas coming.
Im 50 something and these truly are the best days of my life.
Your also 50 something and these are truly the best days of your life too.
I know this kind gift will brighten many Mothers and I know planning this whole collection is making me so happy. Find your ambition and get that ball rolling for yourself too.